http://www.cbulock.com/ Why would you want to know what I'm thinking? Weirdos. http://www.cbulock.com/cameron.jpg http://www.cbulock.com/ 87 95 Copyright 2003-2008 en-us cbulock@cbulock.com 2008-05-05T09:48:58-05:00 hourly 1 2000-01-01T12:00+00:00 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/05/mackinac_island_trip_planned.html Yesterday I finally got hotel reservations setup for my trip to Mackinac Island this summer. I haven't taken any vacations anywhere in years and decided I should finally get around to doing that. I remember Mackinac Island being a fun place to go when I was younger, so I thought it would be a great place to take the kids. Got a nice room with lake-front view setup at the Clarion Hotel in Mackinaw City. Also purchased a package with ferry rides to the island, entrance to an indoor waterpark near the hotel, carriage tour on the island, and a ton of other stuff. Also plan to go across the bridge at some point, not sure what we'll do on the other side, but we will figure that out when we get there. http://www.cbulock.com/2008/05/mackinac_island_trip_planned.html Personal 2008-05-05T09:48:58-05:00 0 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/05/mackinac_island_trip_planned.html#comments http://www.cbulock.com/2008/05/doctor_visit.html So, on Thursday, I finally went to see a doctor. But, this actually has nothing at all to do with my previous posts about seeing a doctor. I went to see a chiropractor. All week, my back had been killing me, and it was getting worse and worse. I wasn't sleeping well as I was waking up every 30-40 minutes in pain. I wasn't able to work very well as I couldn't sit or stand still for long periods of time and was just generally exhausted. It also sucked as I hadn't been on the computer much lately as I didn't even feel comfortable sitting at home in front of the computer for more than short periods of time. Thankfully, Kim is an awesome friend and realizes that I was going to put off seeing the doctor as long as possible, so she just found a doctor and scheduled me an appointment. http://www.cbulock.com/2008/05/doctor_visit.html Personal 2008-05-03T22:32:10-05:00 0 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/05/doctor_visit.html#comments http://www.cbulock.com/2008/04/doctors_trip_upcoming.html So, I have finally decided to go see a doctor. This is kinda major, as I have a distrust for doctors and the medical profession in general. A couple days ago, I had some more issues with depression, and this was worse than I have ever experienced. I realize at this point that I can no longer control this myself and I may need some counseling or drugs, or both. Additionally, sorry to anyone that I have been an ass to in the last couple of days. http://www.cbulock.com/2008/04/doctors_trip_upcoming.html Personal 2008-04-21T12:04:14-05:00 0 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/04/doctors_trip_upcoming.html#comments http://www.cbulock.com/2008/04/test_posting_from_new_phone.html http://www.cbulock.com/2008/04/test_posting_from_new_phone.html Pictures 2008-04-19T13:45:06-05:00 0 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/04/test_posting_from_new_phone.html#comments http://www.cbulock.com/2008/04/the_april_post.html I've begun to realize that my mind is really mostly in control of itself and just kind of does it's own thing. I am now to the point where I have mostly gotten away from depression (I am worlds better than I was a year ago), but it still pops up from time to time. And the odd thing is, it's often when I should otherwise be in a really good mood. Today was somewhat not a good example of this. I was really depressed pretty much all day long, and there was certainly a trigger that caused it to happen. Basically, I was left a message on my phone that was very misleading and it panicked me. I later found out what the message was really about and I should have been able to move on with my day no worries, but I wasn't able to. All day long my mind was wondering and I really couldn't focus on anything. I really don't think I got much done, and I feel bad for my co-workers if that is the case. What bothers me the most though is that I could not snap myself out of this. No matter what I told myself to try and make things better, it just didn't matter. Consciously, I knew I was fine, but subconsciously, I was a mess. http://www.cbulock.com/2008/04/the_april_post.html Personal 2008-04-08T23:19:01-05:00 0 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/04/the_april_post.html#comments http://www.cbulock.com/2008/03/feeling_great.html About five years ago, I had a slight tear in my rotator cuff. This should have told me long ago that I was really out of shape. I didn't realize what had happened at the time, I thought I just pulled a muscle. The pain never really went away though, so, after about a month I decided to see a doctor. If you know me well, you will know I can't stand to see doctors, so this was a big step. The doctor then told me that I had simply pulled a muscle and prescribed some pain medication. The pain wasn't really the main issue, I was just concerned that I wasn't getting better. This visit basically helped to once again solidify my feelings that most doctors are quite incompetent. Months went by and the pain did tone down a bit, but I never fully felt better. http://www.cbulock.com/2008/03/feeling_great.html Personal 2008-03-03T15:43:50-05:00 0 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/03/feeling_great.html#comments http://www.cbulock.com/2008/02/weekend_update.html I finally ordered all the parts I need to repair my computer. I got a nice deal on a Antec 650W power supply at CompUSA's going out of business sale. I also got a new case that Brian had suggested, a motherboard and a new hard drive. The hard drive wasn't really NEEDED, but it will be nice to have. My dead Seagate is covered under warranty, but I want to try and recover the data off of that drive on to a new one. Then I can ship the damaged drive back for replacement. If I go ahead a stick all my SATA drives into this new box, I will have a total of 2TB of storage. I'll probably actually do this as the motherboard has eight SATA connectors and the case has five drive bays. Since I have two 160GB drives that are currently in RAID0 setup, I think I will convert them to a RAID1 so I have some reliable storage space. http://www.cbulock.com/2008/02/weekend_update.html Personal 2008-02-17T23:05:24-05:00 0 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/02/weekend_update.html#comments http://www.cbulock.com/2008/02/working_out.html Near the beginning of January, I bought myself a weight bench. I've been tinkering with the idea of getting into shape for a while now, but things I tried haven't really panned out. I was walking for a bit, but it takes a lot of time and I wasn't really seeing much results for all the time I was investing. Plus, due to the climate I live in, it's not really practical year-round. http://www.cbulock.com/2008/02/working_out.html Personal 2008-02-13T01:32:04-05:00 0 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/02/working_out.html#comments http://www.cbulock.com/2008/02/mental_status_report.html My mind is quite out of control for the most part. It's something that seems to disturb me more and more each day. I used to be someone who felt in complete control of my mind and body. At one point I was able to easily mentally block out pain and hunger and such. Then something happened and I have lost this control. Not only that, but I have had actual emotions and feeling overcome me in ways that I can't change. The worst parts of this seem to come about every six months. I remember quite clearly about a year ago having major depression issues and also again I had a couple of weeks of these issues over the summer. http://www.cbulock.com/2008/02/mental_status_report.html Personal 2008-02-11T22:31:48-05:00 0 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/02/mental_status_report.html#comments http://www.cbulock.com/2008/01/computer_issues.html My desktop has reached the two year old mark now. Though, it's been non-operational for the last month. A while back my DVD burner died, but it wasn't the end of the world. I was backing up a lot of files to it at the time and my have over-worked it. It was, after all, the generic burner Dell gives out. At some point, I ended up subscribing to Netflix and along with that started to make copies of all the decent movies I rented. This was fine at first, I have 1.3TB of space on that machine. Though it may seem like a lot of space, once you account for the porn and all those DVD ISO's, it goes away quick. http://www.cbulock.com/2008/01/computer_issues.html Computers 2008-01-28T21:46:06-05:00 0 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/01/computer_issues.html#comments