http://www.cbulock.com/ Why would you want to know what I'm thinking? Weirdos. http://www.cbulock.com/cameron.jpg http://www.cbulock.com/ 87 95 Copyright 2003-2008 en-us cbulock@cbulock.com 2008-07-06T01:11:51-05:00 hourly 1 2000-01-01T12:00+00:00 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/07/untitled.html Today has been one of the most rough days for me in a while. Things for me are starting to look pretty grim. People keep telling me, "Don't worry, things will get better." I keep waiting for that, but I don't really see it happening. Things actually just keep getting worse. And on top of that, the people that I care about keep abandoning me when I need them the most. I'm starting to think I will just give up on my current friends as they seem like they don't really care and that's really causing me more pain than anything else. I http://www.cbulock.com/2008/07/untitled.html Personal 2008-07-06T01:11:51-05:00 0 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/07/untitled.html#comments http://www.cbulock.com/2008/07/jury_duty_update.html After having to deal with rescheduling my jury duty, it turns out that I will never even have to step into court. Each day I've called in and they have never needed jurors. Today when I called, they said they didn't need jurors tomorrow and confirmed that the court would be closed Friday and my jury service is complete. So, that's cool I never have to go in, though at the same time I was kind of interested in being part of the justice process. http://www.cbulock.com/2008/07/jury_duty_update.html Personal 2008-07-02T17:12:13-05:00 0 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/07/jury_duty_update.html#comments http://www.cbulock.com/2008/06/medical_update.html I've been starting to take medication now regularly for the anxiety attacks I've been having. I've been taking buspar (buspirone) and so far it's been a fairly good success. I haven't had any attacks in the last two weeks since I've been on it. The medication is a bit questionable though. One problem is that, right after taking it, I get really out of it. Worse than when I'm having an anxiety attack. Fortunately, that woozy feeling only last a couple minutes, not the hours it would last during an attack. http://www.cbulock.com/2008/06/medical_update.html 2008-06-25T00:39:12-05:00 0 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/06/medical_update.html#comments http://www.cbulock.com/2008/06/random_entry.html Final entry for the day. Forgot to mention in the last post that tomorrow is Hailey's actual birthday, so she is very soon to be 5. I can't believe I've been a dad for that long. Additionally, since I started this site to document all that, this site is officially 5 years old as of yesterday. I was hoping to do something exciting to commemorate, but I really haven't had much time to work on the site lately. I guess one cool thing is this also means that I have been running off of the 2.0 code base for three years now. I am really proud of that code, I put a lot of work into it. One recent update I did make though was to the mobile site. It now has images on it. I've been posting a lot of images into entries lately, so I thought it would be nice to have them show on the mobile site. http://www.cbulock.com/2008/06/random_entry.html 2008-06-23T19:50:36-05:00 0 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/06/random_entry.html#comments http://www.cbulock.com/2008/06/haileys_5th_birthday_party.html Yesterday we celebrated Hailey's 5th birthday party. There was quite a turnout of family members. My mom actually came this time and a lot of Nickcole's family that I haven't seen in quite a while were there. Hannah and Hailey's cousin were also there, so thankfully there were more kids than just her and Brett. I posted pics on Facebook for this event also: http://www.cbulock.com/2008/06/haileys_5th_birthday_party.html Family 2008-06-23T19:20:19-05:00 0 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/06/haileys_5th_birthday_party.html#comments http://www.cbulock.com/2008/06/mackinac_vacation.html Kinda behind on posting, so I will be writing a couple entries today. Last weekend, Hailey, Brett, Kim and I went up north and stayed in Mackinaw City. The trip was pretty exciting. This was the first time I had ever taken the kids on such a long car ride. Amazingly, they never slept the whole way up and there were really well behaved in the car. http://www.cbulock.com/2008/06/mackinac_vacation.html Family 2008-06-23T13:07:14-05:00 0 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/06/mackinac_vacation.html#comments http://www.cbulock.com/2008/06/life_progress.html So, yesterday I had my worst anxiety break down ever. I was to the point to where I could no longer function. I finally went and seen a doctor. This was a very smart move. We really needed someone to talk with, and I was actually at a point where I don't think my friends would suffice. The doctor and I talked for a long while actually and he suggested some things I should do to try and help with the anxiety attacks. He also gave me some medication which worked wonders. I think it was one of the happiest times of my life. Seriously. When I have these attacks, I have tried everything to stop them. Nothing ever works. Ever. Until now. Hopefully I will get this under control. Maybe see a counselor at some point, who knows. That would depend on if my insurance covers that, which I'm going to guess not. http://www.cbulock.com/2008/06/life_progress.html Personal 2008-06-08T14:26:43-05:00 0 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/06/life_progress.html#comments http://www.cbulock.com/2008/05/jury_duty.html So, today has not gone off to a good start. I received a jury summons in the mail. I open it up, and of course it says I need to appear June 16th. I plan to be up north from June 14th through the 19th. So, I now had to contact the jury clerk and request a postponement. Hopefully that goes through, but I'm sure I won't hear back on that until Monday. Then, I went to Quality Dairy to get some Monster as they have the 2 for $3 sale right now. The Holt store didn't have any Monster M-80. This anti-M-80 thing is really bugging me. Are there people really buying Monster Mixxed? So, I had to go to a second QD just to get a Monster. Thankfully, work has been going well today. http://www.cbulock.com/2008/05/jury_duty.html Personal 2008-05-24T15:11:21-05:00 0 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/05/jury_duty.html#comments http://www.cbulock.com/2008/05/mackinac_island_trip_planned.html Yesterday I finally got hotel reservations setup for my trip to Mackinac Island this summer. I haven't taken any vacations anywhere in years and decided I should finally get around to doing that. I remember Mackinac Island being a fun place to go when I was younger, so I thought it would be a great place to take the kids. Got a nice room with lake-front view setup at the Clarion Hotel in Mackinaw City. Also purchased a package with ferry rides to the island, entrance to an indoor waterpark near the hotel, carriage tour on the island, and a ton of other stuff. Also plan to go across the bridge at some point, not sure what we'll do on the other side, but we will figure that out when we get there. http://www.cbulock.com/2008/05/mackinac_island_trip_planned.html Personal 2008-05-05T09:48:58-05:00 0 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/05/mackinac_island_trip_planned.html#comments http://www.cbulock.com/2008/05/doctor_visit.html So, on Thursday, I finally went to see a doctor. But, this actually has nothing at all to do with my previous posts about seeing a doctor. I went to see a chiropractor. All week, my back had been killing me, and it was getting worse and worse. I wasn't sleeping well as I was waking up every 30-40 minutes in pain. I wasn't able to work very well as I couldn't sit or stand still for long periods of time and was just generally exhausted. It also sucked as I hadn't been on the computer much lately as I didn't even feel comfortable sitting at home in front of the computer for more than short periods of time. Thankfully, Kim is an awesome friend and realizes that I was going to put off seeing the doctor as long as possible, so she just found a doctor and scheduled me an appointment. http://www.cbulock.com/2008/05/doctor_visit.html Personal 2008-05-03T22:32:10-05:00 0 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/05/doctor_visit.html#comments