http://www.cbulock.com/cat/personal.html Cameron and anything related to me. http://www.cbulock.com/cameron.jpg http://www.cbulock.com/cat/personal.html 87 95 Copyright 2003-2010 en-us cbulock@cbulock.com 2010-02-07T19:29:37-05:00 hourly 1 2000-01-01T12:00+00:00 http://www.cbulock.com/2010/02/workout_songs.html I thought I'd share the songs I currently have on my workout playlist. I'm curious as to any suggestions people have to add to this. J99 by Oxide And Neutrino Get Your Body Beat by Combichrist Stronger by Kanye West... 628@http://www.cbulock.com/ 2010-02-07T19:29:37-05:00 http://www.cbulock.com/2009/10/bretts_birthday_and_other_various_news.html It's once again been quite some time since I've written a blog post. Much has taken place since my last posting. Today was Brett's 5th birthday. This was not planned out all that well this year due to the fact that I didn't realize it was coming up until last week. I did however get him the one and only gift he asked for, which was a Batman costume for his Build-a-Bear tiger. I plan to get him some more gifts before the weekend. I'm going to try and throw some type of party for him on Saturday. 621@http://www.cbulock.com/ 2009-10-05T23:24:51-05:00 http://www.cbulock.com/2009/01/look_back_at_2008.html I typically right a review at the end of each year, this year I've been putting if off. I planned to write this the last week of December, but I was afraid it may be depressing, so I didn't. 2008 was quite the year. In some ways it could be described as my best year, in many ways as my worst. It also seemed to be very easily separated into two distinct parts that seem to be demarcated right in the center of the year. The first half of the year was mainly the partying half, while the second half was the sick half. It's quite possible the first half caused the second half, but so far the doctors have not linked the two. 611@http://www.cbulock.com/ 2009-01-29T00:23:21-05:00 http://www.cbulock.com/2009/01/why_do_i_pay_doctors.html On my seemingly endless search to figure out what is wrong with me, I have started to look at things from a different approach. Up to this point, I have been under the impression that there has been something physically wrong with my stomach or digestive system. Standard treatments such as antacids and diet changes have been completely ineffective though. Additionally, every anti-nausea medication I've taken has done nothing for me. I've taken three of them so far, and at least two of them I've looked up and they show the most common use is for chemo-therapy patients, so I know they are pretty decent medications. Yesterday, the scope of my stomach showed nothing wrong. So, if there is nothing physically wrong, I have started to see if it is maybe a mental dysfunction. 610@http://www.cbulock.com/ 2009-01-23T00:27:51-05:00 http://www.cbulock.com/2009/01/scope_done.html I had a scope of my stomach done today. I've been waiting to have this done for quite a while now. I was hoping so much that this would finally solve what has been wrong with me for so long. After I woke up from the anesthesia the doctor said they didn't find anything wrong. When I have mentioned this to a couple people, their response was "Oh, that's good". I mean, it should be good that they didn't find a problem. It's nice to know I don't have an ulcer or cancer or something. But, the reality is, there is still something seriously wrong with me. I have been in tons of pain and suffering for months and months now. This was my biggest fear, that nothing would be found and now nothing is going to change. It seems that doctors will continue to just keep guessing at what the issue is. My ultimate fear is that I will have to live like this forever. I really don't think I can handle that. The only thing that keeps me going from day to day is the knowledge that this will soon be over. Right now, I can't see when that day will be. 609@http://www.cbulock.com/ 2009-01-21T20:58:02-05:00 http://www.cbulock.com/2009/01/cold_and_icy.html This has been quite the exciting day so far it seems. This morning I woke up at 8am as I usually do when the kids are here to feed them breakfast. What I noticed was, I was freezing cold and shivering and i was wrapped up in my blankets. I knew it was going to be cold out, in fact, I believe today is the coldest it's been this winter. But, something wasn't right. I went downstairs and it was twice as cold. The thermostat only goes down to 60 degrees, and the gauge was at the bottom. I could hear the furnace running in the basement, but no heat was coming out of the vents. Thankfully, the maintenance people at the apartment came up rather quickly and determined that the motor to the ventilation systems fan had died. All is well now, but it took quite some time to get warmed up this morning. 608@http://www.cbulock.com/ 2009-01-14T13:24:45-05:00 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/12/health.html So, my health seems to be on a downward spiral lately. I went to the hospital once as I just couldn't tolerate the nausea and pain any longer. The doctor at the hospital actually gave me some medication that is helping for the most part with the nausea. I still feel sick every time I eat though. That's causing a lot of internal issues as I am hungry all the time, yet afraid to eat anything. I have seen the doctor again and he didn't really know what was going on now. So, I am finally seeing a gastrointestinal specialist, but unfortunately that isn't for another month. I don't really know how I am going to cope until that time. Thankfully I have insurance, but the deductibles for all the medications I'm taking and the doctors visits are starting to add up. 606@http://www.cbulock.com/ 2008-12-17T00:47:00-05:00 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/11/doctor_visit_yet_again.html As I posted about a couple months back, I had a pretty serious stomach issue after switching medications one day. I was in probably the worst pain of my life for about an entire day. Things got better since then, but never back to normal. I've had aches in my stomach and started feeling regularly nauseated. More recently, the nausea has been almost constant. Once in a while, I would be up at night in front of the toilet for hours on the verge of puking. But, I never actually puke, I just wish I could. I had stopped drinking both alcohol and Monster and hadn't touched either in over two weeks as I thought they were triggering the issues. But, Thursday night, yet again, I was up all night in lots of pain. I didn't get any sleep, so I decided to call in to work sick so that I could rest and visit the doctor. This time, my stomach issue was identified as gastritis. After the doctor explained to me what it is, and reading online about it, he is completely correct with the diagnosis. 603@http://www.cbulock.com/ 2008-11-09T20:51:07-05:00 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/08/entering_a_sober_phase.html About a month ago, I mentioned that I was really sick after taking the medication Lexapro. The good news is that I have since returned to taking the medication I was on before, just at a higher dose, and things are great. I told the doctor about the stools I have having and he also believes that my stomach was bleeding as a result of the medication I was on. He said it was odd though and he had never heard of a reaction like that. I did a quick Google search and came up with a study that shows that SSRI's have been linked to stomach bleeding. So, I plan to stay away from that stuff for now. 595@http://www.cbulock.com/ 2008-08-23T13:26:38-05:00 http://www.cbulock.com/2008/08/august_updates.html I want to start this post off with a note about previous postings that I have made. It should probably be mentioned that I certainly have been out of it here and there over the past year or two. I'm generally in a normal state of mind, but that always isn't the case. When I not all there, I have found that it's helpful to write about what's going on in my mind in an attempt to help myself later on. So far, this has been working well. The side effect of this is that the postings here generally lean toward the unusual and people have been worried. Please, do not be concerned at this time. I will probably let you know if worrying is needed. 594@http://www.cbulock.com/ 2008-08-11T16:44:09-05:00