Cameron's Thoughts

I will sometimes go into my kid's room when they are not there, and I will look around and try to absorb everything I look at. I will think about all the things that are present in that room and try to imagine what it would be like to be a little kid and that room is all that I know. In a way, it is somewhat disturbing to me. I try and wonder what it is like to be one of my children. I worry about what their life is like. I fear that their life may not be as good as the childhood that I experienced.
As a father, I feel this is my greatest fear. That I am not providing the same life to my children that I was given. There are some reasons to fear this. I don't feel like I am financially as successful as my parents were when they were my age. Also, every time I think about the experiences of my children, I look back and think about what my life was like when I was their age. I think about the fact that I always grew up in a house. I never lived in an apartment as a child. I wonder if this is a disadvantage to my kids. At the same time, I do consider the fact that they have a whole community of other kids to play with that also live in the apartment complex. And they have things like a community pool to play in with the neighbor kids. But, they don't have their own house, or their own yard with me. However, their mom does have a house with these things. So, in some sense, maybe having one parent with a house, and one parent with an apartment is somehow beneficial. I do feel that when I became an adult, I never really considered apartments at first due the fact that I never lived in one. I only considered living in a house. My kids may never have that issue. So, it's possible that I am giving them more life experiences.